I took the day off work, as I had no idea how I was going to be. He had been ill, and I had already spent a lot of time thinking “This time last year…”
And when his first anniversary came, all over sudden, I started to feel differently and did so ever since. This time last year, he was already gone. This time last year, all the pain was fresh, and all the aftermath still had to be dealt with and felt rather overwhelming. All over sudden, i was in a better place than this time last year. The pain has subsided, the problems were solved or at least felt less overwhelming.
From then on I started to see this anniversary as a happy occasion. A day not just to remember the person we lost but also to reflect on how far we have come since. So far, things got better every year.